I am aware that this is another wrong decision. But I don't know, I really understand now that people cannot really control his or her feelings no matter how hard we try.

You have always been special to me years from now. And now I have got the chance to know you better. I have fallen for you again and those girls liking you made me really fucking jealous and paranoid. I want you to be mine now.

And it happened. We were together now, yes. It seems I already had my happiness. One of my wishes came true. But I was wrong, I thought I would feel complete happiness whenever this would happen. There's still something missing. And everything isn't enough for the both of us. It's like everything's a mistake and things are getting worse than what I had ever expected.

I'll admit it, I am aware that you and I were just kidding in the first place. Why do things have to get deeper? Why do I have to fall in love with you? And now I'm suffering. I'm getting hurt.

Whenever I'm having my mind in condition that I wanted to end this, everything is getting better.
Tell me what you really feel so that I can end this fucking shit now.

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BOY I know
Baby why did you let him do this to you again
But you don't have to do this
Wait, just let me explain!

I see the way she treats you
I feel the pain and the tears you cry
Why do u let him do this to u everytime, baby everytime
Now girl I got a proposition

I'll take you on a private journey, just u and me
Baby just u and me

If I was the one who was loving u
I'd do all the things that he wont do
I'll give you what u need be so good to you
Everynight everynight
I know it's hard but you can trust in me
I'll be all the man that you could ever need
Baby it's bout time that you should walk away
Give me the chance, let me be the one

I know the situation
You've been with her now for so long
But u don't have to stay with someone that makes u cry
Always telling u lies
Now girl it's obvious that he will never change
So here's your chance boyl up and leave
You need that special kind of girl to treat u right
Sounds like the job for me

If I was the one who was loving u
I'd do all the things that he wont do
I'll give you what u need be so good to you
Everynight everynight
I know it's hard but you can trust in me
I'll be all the man that you could ever need
Baby it's bout time that you should walk away
Give me the chance, let me be the one

Let me hear u say, you'll pack your bags and walk alway
Let me hear u say, that u wont stay another day
Let me hear u say, that u wont be afraid
Let me hear u say, that u gon find a better day

If I was the one who was loving u
I'd do all the things that he wont do
I'll give you what u need be so good to you
Everynight everynight
I know it's hard but you can trust in me
I'll be all the man that you could ever need
Baby it's bout time that you should walk away
Give me the chance, let me be the one

Baby, If I was the one who was loving u
I'd do all the things that he wont do
I'll give you what u need be so good to you
Everynight everynight
I know it's hard but you can trust in me
I'll be all the man that you could ever need
Baby it's bout time that you should walk away
Give me the chance, let me be the one

Song para sa kanya. Hahaha. :>

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Hey. Long time no post. =)
I was just so happy today that we are not having classes for the entire week. =))

That means Imma spend some times in our house all week.
And it feels good.
Despite of the pressures that junior life is giving me,
I'm still feeling great for this.

I can tell exactly that I have moved on. Why? Because everytime I'm hearing his name, I'm usually feeling nothing. I really don't care about HIM anymore and that feels good. But is this the truth? Or am I just pretending to be over you? :( I wish I'm not.

I really wanna forget about you. I'm actually focusing on other things.

You know, living life without you. You're always bugging my mind.
Could you please stop that? I want you to leave. I don't wanna see you so that I can hardly forget about you.

I feel very stupid. I know you had another yet I still hope that everything will work again for us. Now I realized, this crazy thing called LOVE, has to stop.

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"If letting you go is the hardest thing to do,
Theni`llbeFOREVERholdinguntoYOÜ :)

Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this. I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I’m going to smile.

It's not easy to let go of someone you care. But there are times you just have to let go, not because you want it that way but because it's more painful to hang on and wait for nothing.


-- jara. ü

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Oh yes. Long time no post.

:">
I just wanna share my amazing day. September 09, 2009.
My day was really great. GREATER. :)

So it started like this.
I`m kinda late when I got to school It was almost 6:55 then. And damn it`s raining.
I don`t have my umbrella. Just my jacket with me and it`s not enough.
I went to school and sit on the benches while I wait for my friends.
After a few minutes, they came and we started babbling.
Since it was foundation day, we had our parade. :)
But nah. It`s totally NOT a parade at all. Just don`t ask.
LOL

After the "parade". There was a beauty pageant. "MR&MS. intramurals 2009"
As not to brag, our section`s representative was Oh-Wow. She`s really gorgeous.
With her equestrian costume as her sport. And yes, good news she won. :D

After that, we decided to watch a horror movie at the computer club`s booth.
But we didn`t enjoy much because of the people there. :">

We dismissed at 12noon. We don`t wanna go home yet so we decided to stay at Darleene`s house. We kinda relaxed. Did everything. As in everything.
We watched MTV and other shows. We ate. We take pictures. We had our party. LOL



Thanks to Darleene and of my friends. I really enjoyed and this is one of the most amazing days of my junior life. LOL. I love you all. Until next time. :)

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