It's 11:22 am. Too early to take lunch. Too late to wake up. They say I woke up like a princess, it's always like this. :(

I decided to eat. Considering it was my breakfast. I was alone in our house, my Mom, stepDad and my little sister got to go to doctor to have some check-ups with my pregnant Mom. I like moments like this, when I'm alone and knowing that no one was watching me. :)

I turned the computer on, check my social networking accounts and definitely got bored. I decided to think of something to do, I wanna do some cleaning inside the house. But before that, I decided to blog. I was thinking what I have to blog about, then suddenly I thought of something. Or someone, rather. :>

You see, it's always like this. That person never leaves my mind. I was thinking of THAT PERSON every waking and sleeping moment. Even though we're not together anymore. I still feel the pain, and everything. I always see his face, his looks, his almost perfect smile. :) If only I could tell you what's happening. But sorry I can't. :(( I wanna be free, free as in I wanna forget YOU, everything about you. I wanna forget US.

But I don't know how would that happen, you're always here. And I think nothing can change that. If only there's something I could focus on to get rid of you. IF ONLY.

Good thing we're not going to see each other anymore.

BTW, thanks for these stupid memories. I cannot find my mind now. It just keeps on coming back to you. Yeah, always back to you. :'(

I hope I'm gonna start my new life. Leave my freakin' mind, that's all I ask of you. :(

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I have this feeling, and it's kinda weird. :)
Hours ago, I just no longer enjoyed surfing the net, Just earlier. And I don't know why, maybe just because I'm in the front of this computer for almost 10 hours and I run out of things to do. You know this moment, when you had all the time in the world with yourself alone. You just don't know what to do first.

As I sat in front of the computer, I was thinking about something else. Or someone, rather. :> This person always distracts me, this person's gonna ruin me. I think. He always is popping out of my mind suddenly. Then the world will suddenly stop. And all I can think of was him, his looks, his face, the way he smiles, the way he dresses, the way he PARTY, everything about him! I wanna forget about him but I just can't. Hell why? :X

I know most of you don't understand. If only I can tell you what's going on and what really happened. But too bad I can't. :(

.."Sana lang makalimutan ko na siya..."

Whew. :'( After all those shits he has done, I'm still here thinking of that person every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he never even thought a single thought of me. aww. :(

I wish I can move on, I wish I can live my life freely without that stupid memories of ME && YOU. It just always distracts me in every way. You know, in everything I do and in everywhere I go, they just always remind me of you. What the hell is that. :(

And now I just can't sleep. I don't know why.
Good thing I'll never see you again. Leave me.
That's all I ask of you.

""HARSH MUCH?""

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